The debauchery, the utter insanity. People are flocking to the bars, restaurants, ice cream shops and beaches. Anyone home sitting on their entitled pedestals looking down from their glass houses order copious amounts of trash to fill the void more now than ever before. The recycling dumpster outside is constantly full. It’s cleaned out once a week, and it’s full two days later. Fittingly, there is only one recycling bin, but two trash bins. When the recycling bin is full from Amazon boxes nobody flattens, meal kit service packages, eBay boxes, beer cans, bottles, wine bottles, liquor bottles, we throw it in the trash. Nobody knows where it goes. We think we’re being good little green monsters when we put the cardboard into one bin instead of the other right next to it. No. One. Knows.

They say recycling is quite an intense process that America has no infrastructure for. We ship it overseas or it ends up in a giant field in blocks sitting. It ends up in the ocean because it’s light, it blows away into the ocean from landfills, it flies off boats shipping it to these landfills, and it falls into drainage grates and sewers and flows there. Just because we put it in a bin doesn’t mean it actually gets recycled. Hell, we’ve repurposed more trash than materials deemed “recyclable.” Most trash is degradable and we shove it in giant fields for decades, then turn them into baseball fields and it all gets technically, recycled, right? Shit.

My point is that people in their houses are almost, not quite, but just as bad as those morons being the first to go out and get fucked up at the bars and restaurants and “old haunts” which are really trash houses of debauchery. The first places to truly open up downtown here are the trashy filth-holes that have always been that way. One person called the biggest offender as a “date rape central.” These are the first places to open up, and the same people not accepting of science and those lacking any ounce of sympathy for other human beings are the ones flocking to these dumps. You cannot expect to strictly open up outdoor seating and respect distancing, “social distancing”. You can’t expect to limit capacity when you’re taking reservations on a social media comment section. What the living fuck.

The second you get any amount of alcohol into people, you can’t expect people to move on, you can’t expect people to respect policy. The opposing mayoral candidate was out on day one at LUNCHTIME with friends, sitting at the same fucking table, no masks. The very. first. day. This lady almost became our mayor. Jesus H. Christ. Nobody cares. The CDC is saying there’ll be a delay, but there will be a spike. Fuck it. What are we doing? I’d say I don’t understand, but i do and it’s sad. I’m trying desperately not to repeat myself here from previous posts, it’s tough though.

My disappointment in humanity was already at an all-time low. But this thing has really gutted anything that was left. The last bastions of sanity are waning by the day and there are fewer places I feel I can go for relief. I’m beginning to think I’m the crazy person. How can a person possibly live in a world where THEY feel awkward and shameful for wearing a mask and keeping their distance in public? What fucked up alternate reality is this?! I’m told this isn’t the way everywhere. Perhaps I don’t belong here. If I could leave, I would. My job keeps me here for now.

I walked into a Rite Aid two days ago. I haven’t felt the kind of anger I felt simply walking into a store before, it was bizarre. I walked toward the automatic doors as two other people, no masks walked in, good start. Three employees behind the counter, no masks, standing next to each other. Both pharmacists with masks on their necks. Nobody practicing social distancing, rolling their eyes at me. I went in for a prescription and coffee cream. At the pharmacy waiting for my script, the guy at the next register was shaking his head with the pharmacist who said, “Yeah, we should be doing a lot of things.” In reference to adhering to the rules. The lady pharmacist was frustrated she couldn’t hear me through the mask, she was wearing nothing. I was so frustrated, anxious and disappointed I walked out after that, and forgot the cream.

I took a picture of the state mandated face covering requirement taped to the front door. How fucking crazy. A pharmacy, NEXT TO A HOSPITAL WHERE PEOPLE HAVE DIED from this thing, nobody cares. I walked back so crazed and angered, and it was only when I got back I realized I forgot the only reason I walked into the store and became incensed. What can we do? I don’t know. It’s a crazy time and at some point you get so full of frustration and anger you have to let it go and tune out. I don’t know what else to do. Also, why do I feel like i’d be an entitled twit if I complained. Who the hell would I even complain to? If I posted on social media, the local sites are littered with the same type of garbage supporting these choices, I’d get vilified and shunned as a “snowflake". It’s incredible.

Let’s hope the voting works.