Ireland was amazing, beautiful, gorgeous. What can I say?
Well, to everyone else, apparently much more. People wish to vicariously live through me. They need to leach off your experience. I don’t care to have the typical monotonous conversation about my “vacation.”
“What was your favorite part?” How many times will I be asked this exact question. I desperately wanted to say, “not being here.” or “Honestly, I was so overwhelmed, even before I left I said that just living in castles and being in a new place will be so amazing that it wouldn’t matter if I stayed in my room all day, I’d be content.” But that’s not acceptable. That’s not adequate for their standards. You need to provide THEM more for THEIR sake. people get aggravated and annoyed when I say, “It was good, great. Beautiful, gorgeous actually. Thanks for asking.” Which is what I do. Also, they get pissed that I didn’t bring anything back. They want you to play the game. Fuck the game. Go live your life. Go. Be gone. Don’t leach off me fuckers. Let me HAVE my vacation. I would like to feel refreshed and renewed and rejuvenated when I return. Not rehash the whole experience every 20 minutes someone new comes up to me for 2 weeks straight, asking about my trip for the sole purpose of setting themselves up to revel in their own hopes and yearning wishes to also, go to (insert anywhere) someday. As if they couldn’t just take the time and go NOW. I’m in this to live man, not to be here as if I’m passionate about sitting here in this lifeless environment and stare at spreadsheets all day. For those that are, good, great. I am not.
And don’t for one second act as if you couldn’t take 5 days of 8 hours each (really 6 or less here) off like the whole building would crumble to dust if you weren’t here, at your desk every waking hour. You, are not that important, or special. This place will live on, or crumble on it’s own volition. The work will continue with our without you. The department will continue to fail or succeed as it has been, and life as we know it will continue. You, are not god.