Must Must

I have done not good things tonight. Also I have bad thoughts in my head. Bad chemicals. I love that term, bad chemicals. Makes me sound cooler. More tolerable and enjoyable as a human. What are human? What happens after this? I must know. 

     premature conclusions: bad thoughts, bad habits, bad decisions, bad brain, bad life. Go to bed you have to get up I tell myself. Don't worry about it or them, but I can't. I can't. I care too much. It's in my blood. I hope it kills me. I would rather perish and expire than become more jaded than I am and alone and numb without care. I will murder myself. If life doesn't take it from me. 

   Take me you Fuck. Fucking take me I dare you. Fuck you Fuck you Fuck you. .