i keep saying it and I'll say it again...

There's a shindig going on at the cabana Sunday night with our informal manager. 

Wow. That sentence was something.

Anyway, if I have the money i'm buying party hats. Happening. 

I will see if I can keep to downing a mere half of this 151 Cruzan aged to whatever the hell it might be for the party. My gift. Who knows though, the weekend is young. I have yet to take a drop of this fresh bottle. We call beer king louie's and number as the night moves. "King Louis the 8th etc (or VI, XIII whatever) So going with that and the dead soldier theme given to empties, i call empty handles and liquor bottles dead kings. Dead Soliders and kings. story of my life. 

       I'll buy party hats and perhaps beer if i have the money. I got paid and bought tickets to a show, a once in a lifetime opportunity show. Songs: Molina and promptly paid towards some bills. "Towards" being the key word in that sentence. I am behind and could not even pay one bill fully. But toward them. I said it about March, and April, and i'll say it for May and June until I die. "This month i will catch up." I said it all last year and the year before that. I pick a month things might look good and I will get my shit together to save, not owe, not be behind. Doesn't happen. Something always happens though.

       I will catch up, but my car will die. I will almost catch up, and need something. I will catch up, and find one of my bank accounts is in the red...over $1000. Yes. Overdraft fees re the bane of my existence. Fuck my credit, it's fucked to high heaven. I was credited with helping a man who "employed" me fix his credit by explaining it was super simple to fix it, who then fucked me 3 different times and is one of the main players in my financial turmoil. He fucked me. The man stopped paying me to buy a house. Dropped me like a bad habit. 

       I haven't even started drinking yet.