what have I done?

I've fucked it all up. the only good thing left is gone and now i'm done for. No really. Not in a sad sack like, ohhhh boohoo way, but in a, holy shit nothing is good in this place except THAT, and now THAT is done for. It's official. I gave it all away and nothing to show. Bam, well done. It has never been this bad and the one thing to hold on to, which hasn't been there for months now, but i held on hope, is now gone. Boom.

        i'm into my second cup of mix. I don't know how much 151 i've imbibed, this email is getting written shortly. I wrote these lyrics again today, long ago, but came up again today, "I'm not a success I'm a one night stand." etc etc. it's only one line, but it fits in well with many other things or in any kind of song.