I got it!

I know what it is. I’m going to publish a photo zine. Basically a small book of photos I’ve taken. Do I have a solid amount I’m proud of yet on film? No. So there’s that, but now I have something to strive for. I can self publish it easily from what I understand and I’ve been taking a hell of a lot of film photography so it makes sense. The next big thing I’ve yet to accomplish yet.

I’ve also joined a few groups online regarding the local musicians groups. I want to be in a band again. Well, I always did, and feel as though I’m dying inside because I’ve played drums perhaps twice in the last 8-9 months. But I feel now I have the capacity and ability to get out there again. I have my drums now. I’ve had no drive recently for it other than wanting it. My car’s been less than reliable and I needed it to fit them in there. I got it done though. I’ve recently had reason to bring myself to go get them. Now I do.

I desperately want a rehearsal space now, it’s going to happen. A raise is coming my way and I hope it’s enough to make it happen. I’ll make it happen somehow. I want to join a band that plays out, a lot. I’m terrified to put myself out there and meet with people who I don’t jive with, AKA folks that aren’t up to par. Weekend warriors or people who just want to mess around. Telling them it’s not going to work will be tough. But even more terrifying is meeting others who are better than I am. The need to meet them at their level, it’s what is needed to further my chops, but damn it’s scary. Should I take lessons? I should, I suppose.

A zine, it’s happening. It’s happening! It’s going to happen.