I am left to my own devices Saturday night and some of Sunday! Oh lord. What will be done? What will get done? Probably not much, I do want to finish a few things however. Whatever that means to anyone here.

Writing this I’ve realized, I used to be useful here. I used to post meaningful philosophical ramblings or depressing spilling of guts. Recently it’s all been trite and useless documenting. Ah well, I can’t be moved to write something I think is half-decent all the time. I do plan on perhaps getting a few songs out though. It’s been a while since I’ve recorded anything. That was on purpose of course, but I just haven’t felt inspired or creative in that way recently. It’s all a cycle though. I need a break from that part of me for other creative outlets. I have however been writing more recently, today especially. The last two months, not at a clip as I used to, but infrequently enough to keep myself sane. But I’ve learned slowly over the last few years that it’s normal. It’s just a cycle that is taking its course. Eventually I’ll get pissed off or get drunk and write some more.

I want to get a decent podcast episode recorded and out over the weekend as well. I have one in the can waiting to be edited and posted, so I can get to that, and record another. I think I have a camera waiting for me in the mail. I hope that’s what it is. I should think about shooting some more super 8. I have tons of Black & White rolls for my half-frame. I want to buy a piano to play, I need an interface, I need a new acoustic, I need more rolls of super 8 and 16mm. I need so much crap. Do I though? I want it all for the weekend, but none of it is happening. I shouldn’t spend the money either. I should wait, wait, wait, WAIT! I never wait. It’s all NOW NOW NOW. There’s so MUCH though! guitar stuff, drum stuff. Oh god it’s all too much. I have my hat in too many rings and they’re all crying for my attention.

I’ll come out on the other end either way.