This'll be a short one as I am currently pulling an all-nighter working. And finding every possible distraction to procrastinate with. I take a lot for granted, I know I do. A lot of us take life for granted. Sometimes it takes a near death experience, or even a death sentence itself to start living to our full potential. Maybe someone close to us dies or there's some kind of epiphany that causes it. Sometimes people never get it and it never comes and they live life at 50% or less. Most days I feel like that, but looking at it, at least i KNOW it's there. I at least have the insight into the fact that it IS only 50%, some don't even see it.
I take my job for granted. I edit, I have a cool boss and I can work from home and make a lot of money and do 10 other things while I'm at it. I make my own schedule. My occupation is literally making people smile by creating beautiful cinematic wedding films they'll watch for years to come. That is ACTUALLY my job. But I take it for granted, I get bored, tired and can't find the motivation or focus to get any editing done in a timely manner. What the hell?
I take my days for granted, I spend them sitting here (while I'm supposed to be editing) watching shows, videos online and reading articles when i can be furthering my own life to reach my goals rather than someone else fulfill theirs. What kind of ass-backwards thinking is that? I don't know. Something is wrong in my brain; even when I KNOW I'm doing it, I can't stop. I'll try to edit and 3 minutes later I'm finding myself distracted. It's a serious problem. Even working at the office I can't focus. Constantly not getting enough done and as quickly as it should be done. The only time it's good for anything is when I procrastinate by making music. Most times, especially nowadays I'll shut Premiere off and open Sonar and record some music. Which usually ends up online for a growing number of people to listen to. It makes me happy.
I take people for granted, I take my family for granted, my time, my money, my goals, my talents, my possessions, my aspirations, my attributes good and bad, my wishes, my vehicle, and this plant next to me. It's literally a living thing that exists next to me on my desk. I am not living my life to it's full potential every single day. I'm not even at 50%. And definitely not 7 days a week. Not even half. Perhaps only a few days of every month are spent performing over 60%. That's not much. That makes me an utterly useless human being. Why aren't I more useful? If you're not being useful in the world, or at least not aspiring to be, then you're no good. What the heck man? Bullshit I tell ya, all bull.
Don't take it for granted, we're not here long, and soon your hair will fall out and you'll be dead. So go and do something. Don't. Take. Life. For. Granted.
- Pat