People have unusual and unrealistic expectations of others sometimes. I'm talking in terms of relationships. Sometimes person has a vision of what their future spouse-to-be will look like. Rather than allowing themselves to fall in love with someone who adores them and is head over heels for them, they don't let them in and continue there search. As if something other than the willingness to do anything for the other isn't enough. They will realize in time, whether years, decades or months or days that THAT is the only thing that matters. Pure, unadulterated genuine love for another human is all that matters.
Contrary to popular belief, it does not come often, not the kind of love I'm talking about. I'm talking about the kind of feeling so powerful it hurts you just to think about the other person. Even after things have been settled for a while. Or not, a feeling so strong that they're the first thing you think about in the morning and the last thing in the evening even after you find they don't love you back. That is when you know you truly love someone. The kind of love you feel, and know is there, and even if it doesn't work out, you know you'll have to settle with being friends if only for the excuse to talk with them. When you don't entirely know them but still, you know you'd do anything for them because you feel it in your heart, you feel it in your bones, physically in your stomach. You just know. There are lovers who work, and those who don't. But then there are the couples where one person works so hard to get the other, who doesn't know it yet, but you're the best person out there for them.
But more times than not, those hopeless lovers get rejected, and it's not all a happy ending. They work in vein for a person who doesn't see it, who themselves are seeking something better, or so they think. They don't see the answer right in front of them. They like you and enjoy your company, laugh at your jokes, connect on a deeper level, share the same ideals and values and morals and opinions and everything seems to fit. Everything connects and fits even though you think deep down you're not good enough and this is too good to be true. But still here we are, it seems you both like each other and it could work out. You both fit. So you finally muster up the courage, risk the friendship for something more. Because most times it would ruin the relationship by simply asking, so it's a tough decision, but you finally do it. But they say no, and you don't know why. They see something in their future you don't have. But they don't see the potential, they don't know the kind of intimate feelings they'll never experience with you. What they'll be missing. What they'll never have, you either.
I don't know what she thinks. What the heck don't I have?