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You kidding me? I can't afford a city girl. I CAN'T. There are so many more folks in the city. What's the proper term? What's appropriate now? Girl? Woman? Lady? Female? Gal? Person? What's correct in 2018? Shit, I check myself when i say girl. Most women aren't girls anymore. it's condescending, to me at least. They're women. Grown up. But I digress.

          There are SO many more people in the city. Cultured. Classy, and proper. Perhaps I'm glamorizing it. But it's just a world I can't fathom being in. It's like a fortress I'll never break into. Only acquiring passes to enter here and there. I'm so far away from it. i hate it, but I can't see myself really getting there on a regular basis. Not in a physical sense, but certainly in a status sense. It's a social status thing. For sure. 100%. 

         I suppose it's a cultural status, and financial. Do you hustle enough to be able to afford living in the city? No? Not even close. Not even on the outskirts. And I'm not cool enough to live in a shitty or cheap hipster part either. Are there even parts like that anymore? At this point and the last few years it's becoming so gentrified, there will be no old-school housing left. no old-ass apartment buildings from the earlier 20th century. But it's all getting bought, sold, torn down to put up "green" housing and apartments. Not even the cliche condo. All mass amounts of bland, blase, glass covered apartments. Redundant. Sucks the personality RIGHT out of Boston. Bawstan kehd. Kid. KEHD. FAK YOU KEHD.

              No, I've moved more and more north. Fuck it. There's nothing up here. Shit, the city I work in, I can't even afford.

                 It's all bullshit. All of it.