I fucking hate Fridays.

Yea yea, it's the end of the week, no work, the weekend. etc etc.

But I loathe the thought of being left to my own devices without many plans most days. I have few friends and the ones i do sometimes are up to stuff. So I'm left alone figuring out what to do. I usually get self destructive. It's just no bueno. I enjoy the folks I work with, even though a lot of them are pretty vanilla and don't want to do anything after they've spent all their time during the week together. Some do try to hang. Some don't, some avoid.

It's not that I'm trying to hang on to their friendship or anything, I'm very different than a majority of people here I can say with confidence. Very. So on a long term basis I don't think we'd get along. I am an introvert at heart. I love being alone. Especially when surrounded by people. I thrive on it, I can get a lot of personal projects done (or not and procrastinate) But lately, there's been a few things I've wanted to do with someone that I haven't, and so I feel forced to coop up and hide when i don't want to.

So I loathe Fridays the dynamic between the folks at work isn't there. I'm by no means saying I would rather work, I'd rather not. What I'm saying is, there's structure. I'm forced to interact, problem solve etc. On the weekend, there is NO structure, whatever less than lack thereof is what is. Total chaos and dismatlement (that's a word now) is what I do to my life. Total destruction. Physically, emotionally, mentally, all of it. I don't know what to do with myself. It's insane.

Plus, fuck the weekend mentality.